赶在十月七号的尾巴 我是不是来的有点晚了
本来想 要不然就假装 昨天我实在太忙没顾上
其实是紧张到脑袋一片空白 所以跑去睡觉了
麻痹自己一下 哈哈哈
但大家好像一直在等今年的生日小作文
那么祝我自己生日快乐的同时
就随意发些之前的随笔吧
2017年 9月 夜
又是练习室的一天
今天晚上的月亮 很圆
窗外的空气很新鲜 让人向往
脱下湿透的衣服一瞬间 突然想就这么不管不顾跑出去吧 什么都别想了
我知道 我比别人时间少 我得更努力
我无法控制我的双腿打颤
我知道 年少岁月的可贵 我不想低头认输 我还是要坚持
凌晨时分 发了一个状态 鼓励自己 不料却被第二天的身体状况 来了个当头棒喝 很疼 很累 很无奈 不想低头认输 继续坚持
但确实是有点丢脸吧……
2017 9月
终于到了拍mv的前一天 我又一次失眠
激动 紧张 亢奋
熟悉的”action” 开始了
出道几年 经历了无数拍摄
但这次是感受完全不同以往
充满自信又忐忑不安的 为期两天的拍摄
习惯的“谢谢大家 辛苦啦” 结束了
感觉人放松了下来 却又不自觉紧绷
这种感觉 大概是睡在绳子上的小龙女？
等待 等待…
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2017年 10月 深夜
又是睡不着觉的我 一直发呆到现在 我觉得我错了
我一直说 我这次是豪赌
“心若在梦就在 大不了重头再来”说的那个豪情万丈一腔热血…
可all in之后呢？沸腾之后我又有点慌了…
我们天秤座 确实有点纠结
今年是我二十六岁生日了
为了这些 我们都等了太久太久了
我所有的迫不及待 都是向自己 向你们 向全世界表达 我不会让你们失望
这么想 反正既然是赌 就要有心理准备
没有侥幸 是做好了最坏的打算
大概因为我是常年开十六度空调的男人 热血难凉
明明知道结果却不愿意相信 坚持要放手一博
博的是青春 是汗水 是自信 是热爱 是梦想
是为了那些 无私给予我的爱
所以谁能定义怎样算输？
那这么想我又觉得值了
我们天秤座 也还是很果断的嘛
虽然别人说 你这明明是轴
恩 也挺好 是不是
很开心 二儿子跟我同一天生日
也祝他生日快乐
谢谢你们
谢谢
“I’ve caught the tail end of October 7th, it’s a bit late, isn’t it
Originally I was thinking, what if I just pretended that I was too busy yesterday and I didn’t have enough time
Actually, it was that I was so nervous that my mind was completely blank, so I slept to escape
So I could numb myself for a bit hahaha
But everyone seems to be waiting for this year’s little birthday essay
So while wishing myself a happy birthday
I will randomly send a couple of free-writes that I’ve done before
September 2017, night
Another day in the practice room
The moon tonight is really round
The air outside is really fresh, it makes people yearn
In the moment that I took off my clothes that are completely soaked
I suddenly thought, what if I just ran out like this without a care, without thinking about anything
I know that I have less time compared to other people, I need to work hard
I can’t control the trembling in my two legs
I know that the years are short and precious, I don’t want to lower my head and admit defeat, I need to persevere
In the early morning, I posted a status to encourage myself, but the next day, my physical condition was a wake-up call
Really hurts, really tired, really helpless, I don’t want to lower my head and admit defeat, I need to keep persevering
but this is a bit embarassing, right…
September 2017
Today is finally the first day of the MV shooting.
I have insomnia again
Emotional, nervous, the exciting yet familiar ‘action’ started These years since debut, I’ve experienced so many shootings
But this time the feeling is completely different, full of confidence yet still uneasy
After two days of shooting, the habitual 'Thank you everyone, you’ve worked hard’ comes to an end
I feel that I have relaxed a bit but am still unconsciously wound up
This feeling is probably what the dragon lady felt like
sleeping on the rope? (Chinese myth)
Waiting, waiting…..
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October 2017
It’s the deep night and I can’t sleep again, I feel like I’ve been staring into space until now
I think I’ve done something wrong, I’ve always said that this time, it’s a gamble
'If your heart is in the dream, it will come true. If you can’t make it, try again’
These lofty aspirations are full of hot blood…
But what happens after you go all in?
After boiling, I feel nervous…
We Libras really are a bit confused
This year it’s my 26th birthday
For all this, we’ve all waited too, too long
All the things that I can’t wait for I will express to myself, to you guys, to the whole world
I will not disappoint you guys
Thinking like this, at any rate this is a gamble, so I have to prepare wholeheartedly
There is no luck, it’s expecting the worst
It’s probably because I like to keep the air conditioner on at 16 degrees celsius, a man who’s hot blood can’t be cooled
Knowing clearly what the results will be but refusing to believe it, insisting on making a gamble
Gambling for youth, sweat, self-confidence, love, and dreams
for the people who have selflessly gave me love
So who can tell me how to do the calculations?
No matter how I think about it, I think it’s worth it
We Libras are also really resolute, right
Even though others say, 'you guys are clearly stubborn’
Yes, that’s pretty good too
Isn’t it great that my second son has the same birthday as me?
Wishing him a happy birthday too
Thank you guys
Thank you”
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